“Beware the barrenness of a busy life.” – Socrates
Over the next few days, I worked night and day on it. Researching chakras, and writing descriptions and developing a process for discovering if your chakra/life area was blocked and what you could do to unblock it. It was pretty intense. I took another morning and used the drops and went at it some more. I connected the fact that the lower three chakras were the key to the connection to weight and body image and understood deeply that before anything else could happen the lower three chakras had to be unblocked and open and flowing.
In a moment of clarity while under the influence, I realized that I needed to do this work. It was my lower three chakras that were blocked. I decided to make myself a science project and see what would happen. I was determined to figure this out once and for all. I didn’t want to be hating my body and trying another diet at 80!
Unfortunately, in my manic “doer” state I had signed up for the monthly Female Entrepreneurs Association classes, classes on Teachable to learn how to create an online school, I was trying to stay caught up with the work on my year-long Life Coaching class, plus I was trying to build a writers platform, promote Becoming Zia on social media and increase my mailing list. And, write weekly blog posts. I had a daily “to do” post-it note list on my wall and a whiteboard with a list of deadlines for things in the next couple of months.
If I could just get organized enough, I could do all this and save the world from being fat! Sure!
That is when the Universe gave me a miracle.
During my research for the lower three chakras I did a Google search for “Balancing the lower three chakras”. The first thing that came up was an article written by Amrit Desai. Amrit Desai is a one of a few master yogis in the US. I studied under him for years when I lived in Ohio. I listened to his CD’s over and over for years in my car, I’d read his books. The weird thing was just a week earlier I had gone to a yoga class with my sister-in-law and afterwards talked about him and told her about why his style of yoga was different then others. When this article popped up I knew I had to read it.
When I started reading it I felt like I was reading something familiar yet profound on a new level. He was explaining the chakras and blockages with such clarity that I was blown away. He put into words and explained exactly what I was feeling, yet even more concise, deep and clear. At the end he suggested Yoga Nidra as a way to help. I remembered I had done Yoga Nidra with him, and had a CD. But now he had something new called I AM Yoga Nidra. His daughter Kamini had a CD that was specifically for clearing chakras. Wow. I knew I had to listen to it and see what it was all about!
Yoga Nidra is a process of relaxation, like nothing else. There is no activity in Yoga Nidra, you lay down, close your eyes and listen as you are guided through the process. Kamini is wonderful. Her voice is so soothing. The first time I listened I had a shift. A big shift.
The concept of “doing” and “being” became clear to me. I saw that I was busying up my life so I didn’t have to deal with feeling or being still. When I reached the place of stillness I was filled with anxiety. It took everything I had to work through it and allow myself to be still. Once I broke through I knew I had to stop doing so much, and spend some time “being”. That it was going to be in the stillness that I figured this out.
Over the next couple of days I did the Yoga Nidra with Kamini several times. Clearing the chakras was working. On the third day, I knew I had to stop “doing”. I had no idea how to stop the forward momentum that I had created, but I had to.
First I cancelled my membership to The Life Coach School, then the Female Entrepreneur Association, I boxed up all my Body Belief work and put it in the cabinet. I cringed at putting it away AGAIN, but I knew I had to do it. I cleaned off my desk.
There I sat.
All my busy work and self-inquiry tools gone. Just me, the silence and Yoga Nidra. (Listen yourself below and get a taste of Yoga Nidra.)
The final, Part 5, next week.