You know what writing a book taught me?
1 – It feels great to accomplish a goal!
2 – I need a new goal.
Funny thing about dreams and goals. As long as they out there in front of you, there is a focus, a drive. A reminder that you need to keep working. It is the inspiration.
I had the goal of publishing my book out in front of me for years. Actually, the goal of publishing “a book”, any book was the goal. Before Becoming Zia I was working on another book called Body Belief. It is nearly complete. I got it out a couple of weeks ago and realized I had written over 40,000 words, 9 chapters complete, only one chapter to go.
That’s when it dawned on me. I published Becoming Zia and the Becoming You! Workbook and it felt fantastic. I was so proud of myself. It was so awesome looking on Amazon and seeing it there. Then, I started getting reviews, which was thrilling! But, I realized I was goal-less. I didn’t know what to do with myself.
All the books and classes I’ve taken on publishing say that the first thing you need to do after you finish your first book is to start working on your second. Wow. I had to sit with that a while.
There was a lesson in this for me. I gave it some thought and realized that there was another option.
I am ENOUGH. My Life is ENOUGH. Having a goal or achieving a goal doesn’t make me whole or complete. Being me, just as I am makes me complete. One of the Big Lessons I learned in Becoming Zia was recognizing my own perfection. If I am perfect, whole and complete as I am, that is a much better starting place.
If I want to write another book, I can. But, it is not a measure of my worth or value. It’s a creative activity I want to pursue to feed my soul.
That feels much better and takes away all the anxiousness and pressure. It is a shift in perception, but a major one. It is life affirming and encourages my creative spirit.
We live in a society that gives setting goals and achieving so much value that we forget to remember we are here on earth to experience life and to express our own unique gifts. In order to do that, you have to relax into it and find passion first. Allow it to be nurtured and put a stop to all the expectations and pressure.
“To be released from the unconsciousness that separates you from the True Self, you must step back from the filters imposed by the self-image.”
– Amrit Desai
What I realize today. I am thrilled to have a published a book! I am proud of myself and honored by the outpouring of support and praise. It feels great! However, I don’t need a new goal. I am enough, my life is enough. Actually, it is perfect!
From this point on, I answer to my creative process. That is where my higher self resides. The rest is just noise.