I Am Enough!

I am ENOUGH! My life is ENOUGH!

You know what writing a book taught me?

1 – It feels great to accomplish a goal!

2 – I need a new goal.

Funny thing about dreams and goals. As long as they out there in front of you, there is a focus, a drive. A reminder that you need to keep working. It is the inspiration.

I had the goal of publishing my book out in front of me for years. Actually, the goal of publishing “a book”, any book was the goal. Before Becoming Zia I was working on another book called Body Belief. It is nearly complete. I got it out a couple of weeks ago and realized I had written over 40,000 words, 9 chapters complete, only one chapter to go.

That’s when it dawned on me. I published Becoming Zia and the Becoming You! Workbook and it felt fantastic.  I was so proud of myself. It was so awesome looking on Amazon and seeing it there. Then, I started getting reviews, which was thrilling! But, I realized I was goal-less. I didn’t know what to do with myself.

All the books and classes I’ve taken on publishing say that the first thing you need to do after you finish your first book is to start working on your second. Wow. I had to sit with that a while.

There was a lesson in this for me. I gave it some thought and realized that there was another option.

I am ENOUGH. My Life is ENOUGH. Having a goal or achieving a goal doesn’t make me whole or complete.  Being me, just as I am makes me complete. One of the Big Lessons I learned in Becoming Zia was recognizing my own perfection. If I am perfect, whole and complete as I am, that is a much better starting place.

If I want to write another book, I can. But, it is not a measure of my worth or value. It’s a creative activity I want to pursue to feed my soul.

That feels much better and takes away all the anxiousness and pressure. It is a shift in perception, but a major one. It is life affirming and encourages my creative spirit.

We live in a society that gives setting goals and achieving so much value that we forget to remember we are here on earth to experience life and to express our own unique gifts. In order to do that, you have to relax into it and find passion first. Allow it to be nurtured and put a stop to all the expectations and pressure.

“To be released from the unconsciousness that separates you from the Ture Self, you must step back from the filters imposed by the self-image.”
– Amrit Desai

What I realize today. I am thrilled to have a published a book! I am proud of myself and honored by the outpouring of support and praise. It feels great! However, I don’t need a new goal. I am enough, my life is enough. Actually, it is perfect!

From this point on, I answer to my creative process. That is where my higher self resides. The rest is just noise.

Know Yourself • Be Yourself • Live it Like Crazy!

What Dreams May Come? Follow Yours

What Dreams May Come?

I had a dream. I wanted to write a book.

Then, I wrote a book. But, procrastination and fear kept it locked inside my computer. Then one day, I knew I had to do it.

I had to stop thinking of it as a dream and take action.

Beacuse.

A dream without action is a fantasy.

“All our dreams can come true if we have the courage to pursue them.”    – Walt Disney

Here I am opening the mailing envelope with the draft copy of my book. I’m seeing it for the first time. It was magic. All the dreams, the work, and the perseverance. I pushed through all the blocks, the self-doubt, and the fear. It felt so good to hold that book in my hands!

Here’s the thing.

If I can do this. You can do this.

Do you have a dream you’ve been putting off?

What is it?

Why don’t you go for it? What have you got to lose?

Know Yourself • Be Yourself • Live it Like Crazy!

P.S.  I didn’t just finish one book! I finished two! Sucess builds confidence, and confidence gives you the courage to take risks. Oh, by the way, I am working on my third book!

Becoming Zia NOW Available

Becoming Zia

BOOK LAUNCH

Becoming Zia:
A Tale of Transformation

Now Available in
Paperback and Kindle
on AMAZON

The wait is over. You can get it today! Also, check out the companion workbook called Becoming You! 

Hope you enjoy it!  I’m so happy to be sharing my weird and wonderful story with you!  

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Becoming Zia and Becoming You! Interactive Workbook

Becoming Zia and Becoming You! Interactive Workbook

So . . . I wrote a book.  Can you friggin believe that!

And, . . . it’s going to be available in paperback and Kindle versions on Amazon August 15th.

It is so amazing! For those of you who know about my journey, you know what an accomplishment that is for me! I am very proud of myself and happy to have overcome the fears I had about doing it.

The funny thing about it is that it jump started me and now I can’t be stopped!! My creativity is flowing.

After finishing the prologue of the book, and writing about the lessons I learned from the experience, I thought that a lot of people could benefit from what I had learned. It occurred to me that I could create a workbook that would follow along the journey, and allow anyone to explore the same lessons. So, I did!

With the help of a very talented designer named Matt, and my editor Stephanie, a book was created called Becoming You! Interactive Workbook.

Just like that, I have two books! Mind blowing!

Here’s the thing, it’s not just another book! It’s a tool for learning, growing, and living a happier life. Whatever happened to me in the process of Becoming Zia was part of something bigger, and I have accepted that. I am not blowing my own horn by saying this, it’s just the truth. This thing that is happening to me is coming from inside and it wants to be expressed.  There is no holding it back.

Here are a few pages of Becoming You! for your to preview.

A couple of weeks ago I announced that the first 25 people who pre-order Becoming Zia: A Tale of Transformation will get a FREE pdf download of Becoming You! Interactive Workbook. The good news, there are still some available.  So, don’t miss this opportunity.

Now, I’ve added another BONUS!  Anyone who buys the paperback of Becoming Zia on August 15, 2017,  will also get a copy of the workbook in paperback! (That’s a $19.99 value!)

Click here to order.

There’s even more exciting news coming. But, this’s enough for now! I’m so thrilled to be sharing these two books with the world! I hope you enjoy them!

Know Yourself • Be Yourself • Live it Like Crazy!

Note: When you pre-order your book send me an email or message me on Facebook to let me know. Tell me if you purchased the Kindle version or the paperback.  Otherwise I have no way of knowing it was you!

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Life is short. Live it like crazy!

“There’s magic out there; don’t miss it!” -Ross LewAllen

Small 5" x 7" painting by Ross LewAllen. Painted in Greece.

This week I’ve been working on the book launch. I was looking for a quote from one of the people I met on my trip to New Mexico. It was something about “magic in the desert” so I looked it up in the book. When I found the section I read a few paragraphs and thought back on that day. It made me start thinking of him. So, I did a quick google search to see what he was up to. The first site that popped up was an obituary. I sucked in some air, and my heart did a little flip. I met this man, just one day, at random, talked to him for just a few minutes, but hearing of his death affected me. What had made our encounter so meaningful that I was overcome with a sense of loss, for a near stranger.

Connection!

It is so basic, so simple, but also, very rare.

We were two people who met one day, but instantly had a connection, he was being completely authentic and so was I. We really met each other. I have no idea if he remembered me, but that doesn’t matter, because in that moment we had a connection that was very real. Two people seeing each other on a deeper, more soulful level.

He was like no one I had met before. Now, as I read his obituary, I understood why. This was no ordinary man. He was a seeker, and adventurer, a creative spirit. He understood how to live life fully, but simply and share love. That is the man I met. Ross LewAllen.

Today I’m writing this post in his memory and as a tribute to a person who made a difference in my life, and it was only one short encounter. Life is interesting! Here is the section of Becoming Zia where I wrote about our meeting.

Ross, it was an honor. Enjoy your next adventure!

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Excerpt from Becoming Zia: A Tale of Transformation

As I walked back towards the Square, my eye spotted something in a shop window and I stopped to take a look. It was jewelry, but not like anything I had seen so far in Santa Fe. This was unusual, more like found objects assembled into amazing treasures. I had to go in! It was a very small shop, not much bigger than a small bedroom. In the corner was a traditional kiva fireplace with a big hearth, and sitting on the hearth was an older man. He looked like he had seen things, been places. He fit this place. Dressed in khaki hiking shorts with lots of pockets, earthy sandals, and an open neck sweatshirt. Several necklaces with turquoise hung around his neck along with a lanyard connected to his reading glasses. On his wrist was an amazing old vintage bracelet, similar to those in the window. His hair was stark white, and he had a well-grown soul patch beneath his bottom lip.

“Hello there,” he said. “Come in and look around.”

“Thanks,” I responded, and I went towards the lone jewelry case.

“My daughter makes that jewelry. Interesting stuff. Me, I paint; my stuff is over there.”

He pointed to the wall and a couple of shelves.

“Thanks,” I repeated myself, not sure what to say.

“Where you from? You here for the Fiesta?” he asked.

“California. No, I just happened across all this. I’m heading to the Ghost Ranch for a retreat and thought I would take a couple of extra days to explore Santa Fe.”

“Oh, Abiquiu. Yes, the Ghost Ranch. It’s so beautiful out there. Nothing like it. There is something about that land out there. Definitely something special. I head out there occasionally to make paper, I know a guy who lives in Abiquiu and we make it together. Are you taking a painting class?”

 “Sort of,” I responded. “It’s an intuitive painting retreat called Painting from the Wild Heart. I’m not sure what it is really, but I know it’s not an average painting class.”

He laughed a Santa Claus sort of belly laugh, which made me smile and feel warmly comforted.

“Yes, that doesn’t sound like an average painting class. You do know painting can heal you, don’t you?” he quizzed.

“Absolutely. That’s why I am going. I have a lot of things I want to heal, and I am tired of trying to figure it out in my head. Thought I’d let my creative spirit work on it instead,” I confessed.

“Smart girl.”

He smiled and gave a low chuckle. 

This guy was interesting and seemed very wise. I moved away from the jewelry and started looking at his paintings. They were all very small. He must have sensed the question in my mind.

“They are all small because I paint on the road and these fit in my backpack. I’ve painted all over the world. Last year I spent three months in the Australian outback. So, small works for me, plus I get to capture things in a different way. I see things differently.”

I had a stack of his small paintings in my hand and he started telling me about them, what they were, where he had painted them. Each one had a story. I came across one of two fish in the most beautiful shades of blue and green. The colors resonated with me, brilliant peacock blue, sea glass aqua, and bright lime green on a stark white background.

“I have to have this one. I love it!”

“I painted that one in Greece.”

Then he told me the story.

I loved listening to him and the amazing stories of his life as an artist. His name was Ross and he seemed to live his life following his passion for painting and adventure.  He took the painting from me and moved to a small table, where he began to wrap it up in an old city map.

“Tell me more about this retreat you’re going to?” he asked as he worked.

I told him my story of wanting to go for 10 years, but never allowing myself. How my friends had pushed me and I finally signed up. I shared how I had always been a process painter, making art to work through difficult emotional times, or to memorialize some event. I told him what I had read about Painting from the Wild Heart on the web and what I expected it might be. As he was finishing up, I saw him write something on the outside of the package.

“What’s that?” I asked.

“Something I want you to remember,” he answered. “I wrote, Painting is to love again . . .  to love yourself. That’s what you’re going to find out. That’s what painting will do for you. It’s time.”

He handed me the package. I smiled. He smiled. I wasn’t sure what to say, so I thanked him and turned to leave. I was just about out the door when he said.

“Enjoy the drive to the Ghost Ranch. There is magic out there; don’t miss it!”